| So... |
[Oct. 19th, 2011|04:36 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | moose | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Flamingo | ] |
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| |  optimistic | ] |
I appear to have a job. As of today.
Lets not get too excited yet though, its a telesales job and may make me want to drown in a sea of emo soon. I hope not though, I have yet to discover whether I will be a sales-booth-robot or not. I hope not.
Training starts monday. Fun fun funski!!! |
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| Meh |
[Oct. 7th, 2011|09:00 pm] |
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| | Home Alone | ] |
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| |  confused | ] |
This medication is really messing with my head. Its supposed to be an antidepressant but its messing with my emotions, its like having permanent pmt! Need to see my doctor to change it...
I don't know whats me anymore and whats the drug. :(
I have been so up and down lately its untrue; losing my job, finishing uni, job-hunting, going on the dole, not knowing what I really want to do with myself, starting to have the same feelings as I had before I was on the meds. I feel really isolated at the moment because I cant explain how I feel because I don't know myself. I don't want to just end up bitching and whining at someone either because there are way bigger problems in the world than whats going on inside my tiny little mind.
Proper Emo! lol! |
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| Torn |
[Mar. 12th, 2011|09:34 pm] |
Ok, I have myself a totally awesome hotshop assistant job, which in future may turn in to full-time glass blower. I am so amzingly lucky to have this job at all... yet I feel like I have given up on my dream of having my own gallery/hothop.
I want to be at Okra for a long time, it's a sallary above min-wage and I will improve my blowing skills a whole bundle whilst I'm there and I'm already starting to learn secrets and tricks of the trade which will benefit me in the future.
I long to be my own boss, I just think this opportunity is too good to pass up, maybe at some point far in the future I can have my own glass business or maybe my boss will take me on as pertner in years to come (if they can put up with me for that long) so untill I have 'earned my stripes' so to speak, I will continue to pay close attention to all the useful bits of business running and hotshop running.
I also got my mate a job with Okra so hopefully they will keep her too!
The future holds many possibilities!
Also I miss my wife! :( |
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| Job! |
[Jan. 1st, 2011|08:58 pm] |
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Totally got myself a job! OMG!!!! An actual glassblowing job! :D |
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| Interview |
[Nov. 20th, 2010|05:39 pm] |
Got an interview for a glass blowing job in a few days! :D
So nervous, I hope they like me. |
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| Meh |
[Nov. 1st, 2010|03:17 pm] |
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| | Wolverhampton Uni | ] |
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| |  blank | ] |
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| | Voices in my head | ] |
Need to sort my head out.
I messed things up recently by not being truthful to my best friend... now he hates me. If I try to talk to him it will only make him angry I think so I am staying away in the hope that he will be happy again soon. Maybe then I will be able to talk to him again but I doubt
I can't concentrate at uni, I don't know what I want to do and I cant keep my head straight.
Thinking about things/people I shouldn't be thinking about and I've started taking herbal anti-depressants in the hpe they will help me not feel like a steaming pile of cow dung all day long.
Meeting up with Ally and Hannah on friday! Excited!
Also meeting up with an old friend tomorrow afternoon who I haven't seen for years since she went to uni really... I'm quite excited about that aswell.
Now seems like as good a time as any.
I need to start exercising... may look at the uni gym but its probably to expensive. :(
Not motivated to do anything ever. |
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| Tanks... |
[Jul. 6th, 2010|03:52 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | meh | ] |
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| | Uni | ] |
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| | hopeful | ] |
The longest and most meaningful relationship of my life has recently come to an end. I feel a little out of sorts.
All will be fine shortly though I'm sure, we are still friends.
In other news I am making glass tanks.
Fin. |
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| Primal urges... |
[Jun. 13th, 2010|12:16 pm] |
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Do you ever think we are trying to suppress our basic instincts?
If you look at chimps they don't do monogamy, they do 'alpha male shags lots of lady chimps' and these lady chimps shag males who they think might become the alpha male in the future (they sneak off to do this so I guess its kind of cheating on he alpha) and as our closest living species you would think we share more of their characteristics.... oh wait, WE DO! Millions upon millions of people are unfaithful to their partner on a daily basis.
So why do we try to force ourselves in to something (monogamy) that it is not in our nature to do?
I think men do it to appease women, I think women want it because they want security. (possibly for future offspring in a deep rooted mental instinct capacity)
I struggle with relationships in general and well done to my lovely man (who never reads live-journal) for putting up with me and my continuous need to run the fuck away from any form of commitment.
Commitment scares me and I would rather not let myself get deeply attached to someone so that I can leave the situation whenever I feel the urge to run. I realize that this smacks of 'damn that girl got issues' but yeah, its just always been how I am.
I moved to Sunderland four years ago to get the hell away from everything and start a new life at uni, I did, then my family brought me back here. They tie me to this place because I love them.
Now I have a most amazing circle of friends who I adore (even if they are at each others throats regularly lol) and as long as they are here I'm not going anywhere.
Most of my life I've had a couple of close great mates but now I have a load of them and they make me super happy, probably more than they will ever know. I know this got a bit gushy but my initial point was that I am now deeply emotionally 'involved' with a reasonably large group of people.. and I don't want to run away from them. How rare.
I want them in my life for as long as I live. I want to grow old with them.
I am a very good friend (better with guys because I just don't get women) and hope they know that I will be there for them in any capacity I can. :)
Peace out. |
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| Today.... |
[May. 30th, 2010|07:43 pm] |
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Haven't been on here for a while, life is to hectic of late.
Dad has now recovered from his op and has started chemo with (fingers crossed) no side effects as of yet.
I had a couple of months off uni to look after him so when I went back I had to apply for mitigating/extenuating circumstances which took them over two weeks to sort out, though I did get it in the end. I'm now back and trying to work hard but its difficult as everyone is running around trying to sort out their degree show stuff.
Once that is finished maybe I will get some technicians back so I can use some goddamn facilities! (Facilities for glass are quite dangerous, as Im sure you would imagine, and the legal requirement is that a trained technician is there to supervise. =Mission.)
Rant over...
Meh, least I feel kinda sexy at the moment anyway, sometimes there is an upside. :-p |
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| moosey fate! |
[Mar. 29th, 2010|12:14 am] |
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lalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Had super sexy fun times with a latex clad lady the other night at Heresy and Heels!
I NEED latex... oh for a massive pile of money... |
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